One of the scariest\u00a0feelings I experience\u00a0is when I am asked “What\u00a0should\u00a0we do?” or “What would you do?” and there is an expectation that I should know what to do … and I don’t.<\/p>\n
Do I say “I don’t know” or do I play for time and spout some b*****t and hope my lack of knowledge is not exposed?<\/p>\n
Reflecting on this uncomfortable, and oft repeated, experience I am led to\u00a0some questions:<\/p>\n
1. Where does the expectation come from? The person asking, myself or both?<\/p>\n
2.\u00a0Where\u00a0does the feeling of fear come from? What am I scared of?\u00a0Who am I scared of?<\/p>\n
Pondering these questions I\u00a0have the fleeting impression\u00a0that my fear comes from me. \u00a0I am afraid of disappointing myself. \u00a0It is me that I am scared of.<\/p>\n
Then the impression is replaced by a conscious\u00a0process of looking for evidence that\u00a0proves that it can’t be me – it must be someone else making me feel scared –\u00a0and to feel better I have to shift the\u00a0blame from myself.<\/p>\n
Oooooo … that’s a bit of an “Eureka” moment!<\/p>\n
And\u00a0now I have a new option.\u00a0Choose to behave like of a victim of myself and shift the blame; or choose to\u00a0address the problem – my deep fear of part of myself.<\/p>\n
Phew!\u00a0 I feel better already –\u00a0I have a new opportunity to explore …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
One of the scariest\u00a0feelings I experience\u00a0is when I am asked “What\u00a0should\u00a0we do?” or “What would you do?” and there is an expectation that I should know what to do … and I don’t. Do I say “I don’t know” or do I play for time and spout some b*****t and hope my lack of knowledge … <\/p>\n